As you can tell from previous blog posts, I do struggle with my weight. Some of you may think yeah right whatever, there is nothing with you. You may be right, but I do have a long term health condition which can make things difficult in the weight department. I am pretty open with the fact that I have PCOS (Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome). This subject about me having PCOS can get very embarrassing for me, but if you are interested in knowing what it is, then NHS choices is the best place to get the correct information.
When I was growing up I had no problems with my weight. I may of overindulged with food, but living with grandparents who liked to spoil us, it was hard to say no. My weight only became a problem when I hit my teens. Every other girl was having their monthly when I wasn't, so naturally my mother took me to the doctors. At the age of fifteen I got diagnosed, which I have to admit I count myself very lucky though I rather not have PCOS.
This is when the battle with my weight first began. Weight Watchers now known as WW, was very big in 2005 and I was desperate to try anything. With the consent of my mother (as you have to be over the age of 16, unless it is a health issue), I started my journey with WW. Don't get me wrong, in a year I lose around two and half stone. At this time I was dead against doing any form of exercise, so walking was the only form of exercise that I did. At sixteen I decided to join the under eighteen gym in Gillingham, but I tell you I literally went in there once for the induction. My weight did kind of stay off, but I was surround by people who just ate what they wanted so of course I ended up joining in. The weight went back on quickly and by the age of eighteen all the weight I lost I gained back, plus probably more. I tried to go back to WW on two other occasions, but it didn't last. I was too busy having fun, binge drinking and having plenty of junk food that you would consume after a night out out.
Between the ages of eighteen to twenty four my weight went up and down like a Yo Yo. There are too many photos that I have untagged on Facebook and deleted myself, as I don't want to be reminded of the times where I didn't feel or look the way I wanted to. I can't change the past (though sometimes I wish I could) those photos are horrendous, but there was change. Something just clicked and I decided that enough was enough. It was time to change how I feel about myself and I chose to do something drastic. I did do some exercise, a bit of jogging, a couple of boot camps and a bit of hill training, but nothing really stuck. Plus my diet was still really poor (junk food and binge drinking, still played a huge part at that time).
The thing I chose to do was the Insanity workout by Shaun T. I'm not telling you to do this, as it was gruelling plus it was high intensity, but I thought it was the only thing to kick start any sort of weight loss. Though it was gruelling, sometimes painful and by the end of each workout I was panting like a dog. It was worth it. I lost so many inches it was unbelievable and the results really did show. Shame I didn't keep the before and afterwards photos, as it was definitely an achievement.
Afterwards the weight kept off for a few years with my weight only slightly going up. I didn't drink for a while which really helped keep the weight down. Like I said in the beginning it is always a struggle to keep the weight off. I can't get away with eating what I like, as it slowly creeps up on me and I start to feel uncomfortable.
There are so many tips that I learnt throughout the years, that I always forget to put into practice as life gets in the way and my love for food.
I am a human who has very low willpower, I wish I could be one of those people who can go without having huge blowouts, able to manage their weight and love going to the gym. Plus have a body I would be proud to show off, all toned and tanned. Alas I'm not, plus I have to also remember to love the body I have and work hard towards a body I can be proud of.
Here are some tips that have worked for me over the years
1) Hard work pays off, if you put the effort in you get the results you want.
2) Try not worry too much about what the scales say, for me it can really ruin my day. Plus for me it is a trigger for me to say fuck it and have a big blowout.
3) Be mindful of what you put in your mouth ( I'm talking about food) I try to have breakfast, lunch and dinner with one snack, which is normally an apple with a side of peanut butter.
4) Try to drink plenty of water, herbal tea or sugar free flavoured water, especially after eating as I always feel that I am still hungry. This is probably because I eat way too quick, shovelling food in my mouth, like I have eaten for a week (such a bad habit).
5) Have the treat that your body is craving, and try not to beat yourself up if you have eaten badly for the day (or the week). I am terrible when it comes to this. Try and remember that you can re-start whenever, it doesn't make you a shit person just because you have fallen of the wagon. You can always jump back on!
6) Set yourself a weekly goal that you know that you can smash. This helps me to keep motivated and plus gives me some sort of achievement.
7) Choose a form of exercise that you know you will enjoy. Nothing worst, than doing a form of exercise that you loathe, you will just resent having to do it in the first place. I may complain about going to the gym, but when I get there I get in the zone and I end up enjoying doing a workout.
8) I personally am so rubbish at doing this, but when I do I know it works. Writing down and prepping meals for the week and to know what you are going to have, really does make a difference. When I don't do this, I definitely tend to eat so many more takeaways and junk food at work as it so accessible.
9) Take it one day at the time. I am so bad to wanting things to happen quickly, I have been healthy for one whole week I should be 9 stone now. That will never be the case, plus this is another trigger for me, so I know that things take time and doesn't happen over night.
10) Last but not least, please please please do not get drawn into buying these magically slimming coffees, detox teas, gummy bears that is apparently going to help you lose weight. If you eat healthy and keep active, trust me you will get the same results, plus save so much money in the long run.